mood diary
my mood keeps fluctuating to a concerning degree. it's gotten to the point where i'll have one day where i feel like a normal, happy, healthy human being and the next i feel like i'm on death's door. i don't have the money to go to a doctor or therapist. there's probably something wrong with me. but until that magical day comes when i have good insurance or america descides that healthcare is a human right, this is my way of tracking and trying to understand why i am the way i am. at the end of every day, i'll mark the caledar with one or two emojis indicating my mood and energy level.
emoji glossary
😐: neutral. not a good day, not a bad day. no strong emotions. just vibes.
😃: happy. probably having a good day in general. not too emotional, but the vibes are good.
😟: sad. not depressed, just sad for whatever reason. the vibes are not vibing.
🥺: depressed.
😒: annoyed. snippy. i low key want to be left alone but that's not an option.
😡: just a bad day. i'm angry, snappy, i want to fight god, and i feel like a terrible person because sometimes i'll snap on the people i love. i've come close to reenacting the lyrics of minimum rage. everyone is an idiot and i want humanity to die in one fell swoop. it's an all around bad time and i try to stay isolated when i'm in this mood.
😬: anxiety.
😶: disassociated most of the day.
⚰️: death's door. sometimes worse than depressed. sometimes i just physically feel like i'm near the end for whatever reason.
🤩: insanely happy. this one is the exact opposite of death's door. it's like a mini manic episode. the world is a little brighter, my heart is full of light and love, nothing can get me down. i usually have lots of energy and get a lot of things done, and my confidence is through the roof. this one is usually followed by death's door.
👽: this is a weird and rare one. i'll have days where i feel like i'm not here. there's no real emotion. the world feels fake. i sort of just float through life. it's like disassociation, but more intense. maybe it's just disassociation. idk.
🏎️: zoom. while high energy usually comes with the insanely happy mood, sometimes i got an energy burst even when i'm not that happy. they're rare.
🐌: low energy. 0 drive to do anything, no matter what my mood is.
🩸: i'm on my period. oh, is that tmi? if you're old enough to be on this website, you're old enough to handle normal human bodily functions like a grown ass adult. menstruation affects emotional and mental state.
💊: premenstrual syndrome - physical. pretend the emoji is a midol tablet.
👹: premenstrual syndrome - emotional. i've often suspected i suffer from premenstrual dysphoric disorder (pmdd) and it's part of why i'm making this mood diary.
🍺: i drank and it had an affect on my mood. i don't drink a lot anymore, usually only at renfaires and festivals where there's mead.
🍔: i'm ravenous. i eat and eat and i can't feel sated.
two or more seemingly conflicting emojis usually means i had a mood swing or the day started out one way and ended another.
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😃🥺
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😐🐌
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